I want to thank all my LiveJournal friends, because if I had not been able to share this Black Wednesday with everyone by reading your reactions, your rage, and your plucky optimism, I would probably be curled up at home in a fetal position. Or sitting here at the office ready to rip a few heads off. Well, actually I’m STILL ready to rip a few heads off. It’s comforting to be part of the Great Vent. Knowing life goes on. Last night eating at Kopi I overheard someone say, “See you tomorrow at the Revolution.”

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fuck.

(CNN) — Democratic Sen. John Kerry phoned President Bush on Wednesday to concede the presidential election, a White House aide said.

President Bush was to deliver a victory statement at 3 p.m. ET, Bush aides said. Kerry was expected to make a concession speech at 1 p.m. ET at Faneuil Hall in Boston, Massachusetts.

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Some Thoughts On The Future

If Bush is declared the winner, it’s time to look ahead at what it will mean. And by looking ahead, I don’t mean putting a hopeful spin on things. Here’s what’s occurring to me.

This election has shown that we still live in a deeply polarized nation, even after 9/11. If Bush wins, it will be with a bare majority of the popular vote. If you add the left-leaning people who voted for Nader and other independents, and the fence-sitters who decided to give Bush another chance, maybe it’s not a majority at all.

And I believe that this victory will come with a great price for Bush and the Republicans. The War in Iraq is only going to get worse and worse; it will continue to drag on, and will only get more unpopular over time. It’s going to cost all of us more and more. And in the end, it will cost them votes.

It’s true that the Republicans have a majority in Congress. But if you think the Democrats fought hard over the last three years, wait until you see them over the next four. Ordinary people have been mobilized by this election, and a new generation of serious thinkers and engagers has risen up (I include myself; three years ago I never would have volunteered or given money to a political campaign. But I did this time.) These new progressive voices for change and justice will not be silenced. The lawmakers do not and cannot determine our futures. We will be writing letters, making calls, and taking to the streets. After coming so close and seeing such horrific things, in our own lifetime, the era of apathy is over for us.

If Kerry loses, I don’t think he will be given another chance. So who will that leave for 2008? Maybe Howard Dean. Maybe there are some Democratic strategists who are kicking thmselves over this twist of destiny, asking themselves how things might have been different had the primaries chosen a REAL anti-war candidate. Then again, maybe the strategists aren’t thinking that at all. Maybe it will take another southern Democratic (who the hell would that be?) Or maybe it will take Hillary Clinton in 2008.

If Bush goes back to work in January, he will be inheriting a divided nation–one that, ironically, he himself helped to create. He has no one to thank or blame aside from his own administration. Democrats have learned from the lessons of 2000, and they will not go gently into this good night. There is going to be ugly partisan bickering, and deadlocking. Barack Obama has a hard road ahead of him, but I believe he can somehow be a positive force in the Senate. He has shown he can run a campaign without resorting to negativity. There’s a chance that even in a bitterly divided Senate, lawmakers will respond well to that.

I am fearful for the future makeup of the Supreme Court.

I know part of me is being idealistic. But remember this. Unless Bush and Co. undergo a radical personality shift and drastically switch philosophies (which I doubt they will), they are only going to make things in this country worse. The economy will sputter, the war will drain away money, nothing will be done about the healthcare situation, more countries around the world will leave us to our own devices. And Bush will be digging his own grave. Because maybe in a country like ours where so many people have willfully blinded themselves to the truth, things are going to have to get even worse before people finally wise up. And if Bush gets a second term, things will get much much worse. And in awhile, karma is going to bite half of this country in the ass. You watch it happen.

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careful … nice & easy …

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Voting

I left the house at 6.18 this morning, it was still dark and rainy, and there were streams of people on their way to vote. My polling place was at the Menlo Library on Belmont (30 Pct., 44 Ward). I got there around 6.30 (the polls opened at 6) and there was already a line. All in all took about half an hour. As I left, the line had about doubled in length. When I got to work I called Andy and told him to give himself at least an hour to vote. Sure is nice seeing lots of people out there and engaged. Thank God we will stop having to hear about Alan Keyes tomorrow!

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The last day of October. It sure went by fast this year. But at long last I have a nice, relaxing weekend. I have the day off from work tomorrow (it’s my ‘official’ one-year anniversary day). Yesterday went very well. For once I was able to hold some concentration after Andy left for work and I sat down and wrote 4 very good pages of the new piece. My only concern is that it ended up coming out a little too much like Hemingway. I’m reading “Islands In The Stream.” Still, it felt great to get it out. Then last night while Andy was at a cocktail gathering (which he admitted to me this morning turned out to be a little dull) I hung out with Jeremy and we shot the breeze and watched SNL. It was cool to see Emminem do his anti-Bush song. Then it was Sound Asleep.

In a little while zephsright will be over and we’ll order some pizza, have some wine and pumpkin pie and watch some scary movies. We rented “Island of the Lost Souls” and “Poltergeist.” No costume schenanigans for us this year. The last two years we tried to do something to that effect and it turned out lame. So this year we’re just gonna be couch potatoes. It’s been amusing if slightly envy-inducing to read everyone else’s accounts of whooping it up and bar hopping till 6 am.

October seems to be the last real moment of meditation each year. November and December always get so busy and filled up that it’s all but impossible to find any extended period of time for reflection. This is when I usually start to take stock of the year and see where things have gone. And this being an election year has made it easier to look at what’s happened and try to picture a new tomorrow. If Bush wins, it will be harder than ever for many of us to face the day with optimism; that isn’t right, and it’s sort of sily, we’ve all come so far and become so much more engaged in what’s going on, but it’s human nature to take disappointment personally. We’re going to the Neo-Futurarium Tuesday night for “The Election Show,” with bits of comedy and commentary to go along with the live media coverage and I’m really hoping it will make the tension easier to endure, easier to laugh away.

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from Laurie Anderson’s show

Maybe life is just … bad ART. There’s not really a narrative, or a plotline. Everything is just so slipshod. Characters appear and then they go away away for awhile and then they come back, and then they get killed off for no good reason.

At the beginning of the war, everyone was so confused. ‘Why does everyone hate us?’ We couldn’t understand. Well. They hate us because we’re rich, and we’re democratic, and we’re free. But you know, it’s like that beautiful girl in high school. And she says, ‘I don’t understand why everyone hates me. Everyone hates me because I’m beautiful.’ No. They hate you … because you’re a JERK.

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Leonard Cohen is 70 Years Old & Still Kicks Ass

Lyrics to a song from the new album “Dear Heather,” which was released today:

ON THAT DAY

Some people say
It’s what we deserve
For sins against g-d
For crimes in the world
I wouldn’t know
I’m just holding the fort
Since that day
They wounded New York
Some people say
They hate us of old
Our women unveiled
Our slaves and our gold
I wouldn’t know
I’m just holding the fort
But answer me this
I won’t take you to court
Did you go crazy
Or did you report
On that day
On that day
They wounded New York

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I was in the shower yesterday and all of a sudden the ending to my new book just came to me. Lem impulsively goes to the airport and flies to Paris. Of course. Why did it come to me in the shower?

Last night I had that weird recurring nightmare of mine where I start yawning and opening my mouth really wide and I can’t stop and my jaw starts squeezing my teeth together as I yawn wider and wider, and my teeth start crushing together and crumbling to bits and my two front teeth fall off and I’m bleeding everywhere and I still can’t stop yawning. It’s not very pleasant. I guess it stems from the fact that I really am afraid at times that my two front teeth will fall out (long story short: they’re not real, they’re crowns, I lost my real front teeth in a bike accident when I was eight).

I really want to go and see a movie (“Shaun of the Dead” and “I Heart Huckabees”), but movies are just too fucking expensive. I just cannot bring myself to casually pay $9 for a ticket. It really makes me angry. I’d have to say that it’s one of the most annoying things about our modern society. I like watching DVDs as much as the next guy, but it’s just not the same as seeing something on a big screen in a darkened theatre.

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Sunday

Homemade cinnamon vanilla french toast with melted butter and warmed maple syrup. 2 strips of crisp bacon. Hot coffee with milk.

And now it’s time to spend the day scrubbing mold from the ceiling and walls of the bathroom, and then to bleach the ceiling and walls of the bathroom.

Tonight however we are going to watch “Ganja and Hess.” Looks real interesting.

Laurie Anderson on Wednesday at the Vic!

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