The Lameness of Most of The Powers That Be

Check out this front-page article in today’s New York Times (“Disney Forbidding Distribution of Film That Criticizes Bush”) about the new Michael Moore film: http://www.nytimes.com/2004/05/05/national/05DISN.html?ei=5062&en=89983012bdce5ec0&ex=1084334400&partner=GOOGLE&pagewanted=print&position=

Michael Eisner really ticks me off. But the upside is that, from the very fact of Disney refusing to handle the film, more people will go see it. John Kerry might not know it yet, but this film will be his secret weapon.

God, I can’t wait to see it. It will be only the SECOND documentary in the HISTORY of the Cannes Film Festival to be a film in competition (the first was “Bowling For Columbine”).

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“Music Typewriter” by Moreno + 2 really is a lovely album. I’m listening to it now here at work and I’m really happy that it’s finally a sunny day out there.

It’s not fair that the new Jim White album is being released in the U.K. before the U.S. The man is from Pensacola!

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You can never be perfectly happy with someone. You can be VERY happy, even MOSTLY happy. But not perfectly happy. The only way you could is if the person were to remain a fantasy. Because everyone is imperfect, and there’s always a certain amount of friction no matter how good things are. You fall short of ideal, and so does the other guy.

Logically I know this, it makes perfect sense, but when I think about it I still feel melancholy. It just seems programmed into our nature to always wonder “what if?” I’ll try and be happy, be satisfied with what I have. And usually I am. But that mood indigo still comes spilling over me from time to time.

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So tomorrow morning at 11, Scott is picking me up & we’re going on a roadtrip to Denver. We’re planning on driving straight through (16 hours). That would make me pretty trigger happy by the time Sunday rolls around. I’m staying with my grandmother Sunday night and I get to see the rest of my family for dinner and lunch (because, in my family, socializing always revolves hinges on eating) before flying back to Chicago Monday afternoon.

I hafta pick out some CDs to bring along. Seems like I have plenty of road mix suitable music to choose from. Faves out there?

Last night Andy & I watched my new Criterion DVD of “3 Women.” GOOD GOD I LOVE THIS MOVIE. I know I’ve blathered on about it on LJ already, but this truly is a gem. I’d almost dare to put it in my Top Ten. Perhaps I shall.

After work today I’m heading to Barbara’s Books at Navy Pier. They want 12 more copies of the book for their ARTchicago expo booth next month! I think my creative muscles are slowly tensing up for my next project. A novel. My working title at the moment is “Tentative Decisions.”

Andy is going through some rough times. Decisions about his future, and present. It’s a challenge for both of us. But I have real optimism.

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5 Things Which Annoy Me

1: when people are not punctual and/or simply fail to show. this sadly runs rampant throughout the gay world, and i HATE it. why can’t people just BE where they say they’ll be WHEN they say they’ll be there? (try saying that 5 times fast).

2: motorists who fail to yield/pay attention to pedestrians.

3: materialistic brand/label worshippers (i.e. “o my my god, HOW could you shop at old navy?! i ONLY go to gap!”)

4: when people accept what’s spoonfed to them instead of thinking for themselves; people who stubbornly remain ignorant rather than broaden their point of view. not to ummm generalize, but i’m talking about people who often watch fox news, listen to rush limbaugh, and believe what the bush administration says.

5: americans who are afraid of straying outside mainstream culture. for example, the following things make them uneasy: foreign films, “ethnic” cuisines, jazz, pbs, npr, and any pop culture older than 1970.

p.s. thanks to pijeanf for playing my david byrne request on her show last night! i sure hope you get the new album soon so you can play that. damn good stuff on there.

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Last night I met up with S. at the Duke of Perth and we just hung out and talked for a long time. A lot of heavy stuff going on in his life right now, on the verge of some changes, but I think after he unburdened himself to me he was beginning to see it all as a chance for good stuff in his future. He’s seriously thinking about starting to write, after years of being afraid to. I think if we both started our projects together and kept each other accountable for staying on task, we could turn out something great.

Ah, 2 pints of Bellhaven.

Going on a road trip to Denver in 2 weekends! A friend needs to drive his car out there from Chicago, so I’m tagging along. Should be fun.

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I hafta do another weeding-out of my friends list. I don’t like it when people have that 100% one-way street mentality.

Work lately would be worth complaining about, but that’s terribly dull. So never mind.

I wish there was more to say. Mexican food on Saturady night with Jerroid & Tristan will be great. I could use a margarita right now.

Thursday is our 4th anniversary, Andy & I. We’re going out for a nice dinner at Firefly on Halsted. I’m hoping that if we mention our anniversary, we’ll get a free drink or something. We ought to. 4 years in the queer world is nothing to sneeze at.

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I Know You’ve Heard It Before But … (or: Mom! Dad! It’s evil! Don’t touch it!)

Rob is grumpy today. Why is Rob grumpy today? Because Rob is at the office, doing the work of two people. Why is Rob doing the work of two people? Because Person #2 has not been hired yet, and until Person #2 is hired, Rob must continue to do the work of two people. When will Person #2 be hired? Ask me no questions and I’ll tell you no lies. Between the irritating switchover to the new software (which has been a largely nonfuntional switchover at this point because things were not set up correctly beforehand), the aforementioned job vacancy, and an additional job vacancy not previously mentioned, Rob’s boss has his hands full and is much too distracted to think about interviewing job candidates right now. Even though Rob gave him several excellent resumes from friends who are trustworthy and eager to start working. Rob has a nasty habit of being too EFFICIENT at his job, which of course means that everyone else in the office (albeit subconsciously, perhaps) gives Rob additional tasks. This doesn’t pay. So perhaps if Rob “floundered” a bit more, the hiring of Person #2 would become more of a priority. Spending time by surfing and writing on LJ is a good way for Rob to be less efficient.

This is a shame, because last night Andy & I went to Hydrate for drinks and met ezurbub and his boyfriend Tristan. And it was so great! We all got along really well, had plenty to talk about, and just really enjoyed meeting each other. $1 drink night is the best. I hope we all get to hang out again soon. I shared with them my idea of organizing a bi-weekly group of guys to get together to watch a movie on DVD and talk. As Andy & I walked home, we both agreed that it was really wondeful to meet another couple of guys who are intelligent, articulate, interesting, and not full of themselves. And the fact that they actually want to spend time with us is a super ego boost as well. (Stop blushing).
Why is there presently this yucky emotional divide between work and non-work for Rob? Rhetorical question.

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My Poor Sweetheart(s)

Andy’s computer suffered a nervous breakdown yesterday, and as a reult he almost did too. Long story short, we had to run the restore disk. Luckily, none of his actual data files were lost. But his PC was restored to what it was like when he bought it SIX YEARS AGO. The poor boy took today off work just so he can finish the restorative process. We can’t find a way to import his email messages into his “new” Outlook Express profile; the computer thinks that he’s never logged on before, so even though the messages ARE still on there, it doesn’t have any sort of “profile” associated with them. So it doesn’t know what to do. Any friendly advice out there?

Switching over to the new accounting software here at work beginning this afternoon. Could be potentially painful. Hmm, I suppose that’s a pretty dull thing to write about.

Am re-reading “My Life In The Bush Of Ghosts,” by Amos Tutola. This is one freaky book. Like “Alice In Wonderland” on acid and African. I still love it. (Brian Eno & David Byrne used the title for their album).

We watched “Carrington” last night. I’d last seen it in college. At the time, I was dating Tiffany (who was to be my last “girlfriend”). The film disturbed her so much that afterwards she threw up. Little did she know how apropos it really was.

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My Bloody Christ

So I saw “The Passion of the Christ” yesterday; my parents asked me to see it, and I wanted to be able to talk about it intelligently rather than on hearsay. Well.

The film is basically nothing more than a Catholic-fantasy version of Christ’s last hours. In fact, it owes more to Catholic dogma and tradition than it does to either a strict scriptural or historical interpretation. You can just see Mel and his screenwriter with their Stations of the Cross pamphlet, spinning out some dialogue here and there to flesh things out (forgive the pun). And as such, between the obsessive faithfulness to Catholic tradition and Mel’s fanciful embellishments, the elements in the original scriptures that seem either melodramatic or just hard to swallow are exaggerated to the nth degree. We see a man tormented by a bald, vaguely androgynous Satan (hmm, don’t remember that from the Gospels), whose betrayer Judas is then taunted by a crowd of demonic children (!) before hanging himself with a rope taken from a rotting donkey corpse; a Christ beaten within an inch of life, first with long sticks and then with cat-o-nine-tails, the blood smearing the stone floor like something out of Gus Van Sant’s “Psycho,” yet somehow able to stand up moments later and then carry a cross several miles UPHILL (which is so heavy that we are later shown 4 strong Roman soldiers heaving just to PICK IT UP), all the while bleeding what appears to be a veritable Red Sea, only to somehow be nailed to the cross (incorrectly; nails were actually driven into the arm just below the wrist and not through the palms, as is shown in the movie) while the bad-guy criminal on the cross next to him gets his eye pecked out by a raven (apologize to Edgar Allen Poe, Mr. Gibson). Spike this concoction with dollops of bombastic music, gallons of slow motion to complement the blood, and you get a film so deep with manipulative overkill that it’s a wonder that at the end of the film we don’t see James Caviezel look into the camera and say, “Ouch. I suffered for your sins.” The final effect is, irony aside, deadening.

If this film was done as a tool of evangelism, it’s a sorry piece of work indeed. But I don’t think it was. As I said, to me it just seems like a Catholic primer, a Cliff’s Notes version of the Passion so you can watch the movie if you don’t have time to read the Book before tomorrow’s test.

We aren’t given much context for what we’re seeing (the Sermon on the Mount gets a 30-second flashback for example, and the resurrection gets boiled down to a single shot). So as it is, we get roughly 90 minutes of brutal torture and humiliation, 25 minutes of serious and doleful faces, and 5 minutes of credits (mostly for special effects involving prosthetics and fake blood).

If you took this plot and transplanted it to a different era and changed the character names, the violence would cause the film to get an NC-17 rating and Sean Hannity would be shake his head over “the entertainment industry’s moral depravity.” But I guess that when you’re on God’s side, the ends justify the means.

Is the film anti-Semitic? That criticism is too narrow. This film shows a blanket disgust for humanity. With the possible exception of Pilate (whose political Catch-22 is about the only interesting angle to the film), every character, including Christ, is as one dimensional as a religious tract: the solemn suffering Christ, tearful pious Mary, evil snarly Roman soldiers (who come off like particularly sadistic frat boys), sanctimonious Pharisees. But why offer living, breathing characters to an audience when time-worn dogmatic cliches will suffice? After all, we wouldn’t want to surprise the audience with anything resembling a fresh perspective on this story.

If you’re really interested in this, see Pasolini’s “The Gospel According to St. Matthew” instead; he may have been a gay atheist, but even he did a more convincing job portraying Christ’s divinity. Or Scorsese’s “Last Temptation of Christ,” which at least is provocative enough to force the audience to question what they believe. Mel is preaching to the choir with this one, so it’s no wonder the choir is forking it over.

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